The way I see it...

So it's been a long time since I posted anything on here. Since my last post I have been at my job 2 years and I've loved my job. I'm still part time, but it gives me the opportunity to do the church activities I love and still work a fair amount of hours. Nothing is perfect but I'm so thankful for the opportunity to work. And I believe everyone should work a retail or food service job in their life. It makes you more appreciative of the people who work to help you and bring and make your food. I never really understood until I dealt with the difficult customers and the long hours on your feet. My job has helped me to blossom out of my shyness and I'm still working on it but I'm doing s lot better than I was. My little sister got married in October 2014 and just announced that she and her husband are having a baby in February. I was the maid of honor in her wedding and nothing made me happier than standing by her side when she married Tyler. He is a good man...

I was on pinterest today(what else is new) and just for giggles I looked up 'Scoliosis' and what I found amazed me.See I was just looking for exercises that you can do with scoliosis, but what I didnt expect was to get soo much encouragement from others living with this. As for having scoliosis I am fairly lucky. I didnt have to have surgery when I was younger, I had that horrible brace. But looking back I wish I had worn it more. But I always felt ugly in that thing, so I only wore it when I had to. Since I have started working and standing on that concrete floor my back has been bothering me much more lately. But seeing the scars from others has inspired me to embrace the brace and just feel better about having scoliosis.. Here are some of the pictures that inspired me: I love this!!! Because its the truth scoliosis doesn't break you its just another bend in the road... I would never get a tattoo, but this is very inspiring! This scar is from a girl ...

Recently I have gotten some heartbreaking news about.. a friend.. her name is Ashleigh-Anne. She has many health issues right now and it is really hard to describe how it is making me feel. I know.. if this is about her then why is impacting me like this.. I am not a super close friend, I am not family, I dont get to see her on a regular basis.. so why is this so tough? I think the reasons are because she is someone I know, she is soo young, she has a young daughter, but if I had to say only one reason it would be this.. She is a living example of what I want my future to be like. A loving wife. A wonderful mother. A loyal friend. A joyous person. From the glimpses I have been able to see and from the things I have heard, she has been following God's will for her life. And even now in her sickness she is trying to find a way to give God the glory. Honestly if it was me I would be having a much harder time with this. But after my daily devotion on Tuesday I think I might hav...

I have been thinking lately about who I am as a person and through this self evaluation I have realized that recently I am waging a war with myself.. There is a negative, hurt part of myself that cries every time I hear something that other people would count as happy. Hmmm... maybe I should explain somethings.. I am 21 years old and I live with my parents . I graduated high school in '09 and I am neither in college or employed right now . Now anyone would be frustrated with those things, but the combo is making me crazy.. Now most would say "I have my whole life ahead of me" or "this is the best time of your life".. right!.. Right now I am older than my mother was when she got married and at the end of the month I will the same age my brother was when he got married. Now to some that may not seem so bad, but all my peers, people in my age group, they are ALL getting engaged, graduating college, getting married, and having children. I am still STUCK here...

I am leaving in 2 hours so I am to wound up to sleep.. its currently 2:10am and I am leaving at 4:30 from Atlanta to go to Iowa AGAIN.. when all this craziness is over and I am in my own bed with my cat curled up next to me I will explain further the past 2 weeks.. but one of my friends got me thinking.. about sleep quotes and I found this one which I thought was touching and not really about sleep.. but it was cool.. so here it is.. "Laugh, even when you feel too sick or too worn out or tired. Smile, even when you're trying not to cry and the tears are blurring your vision. Sing, even when people stare at you and tell you your voice is crappy. Trust, even when your heart begs you not to. Twirl, even when your mind makes no sense of what you see. Frolic, even when you are made fun of. Kiss, even when others are watching. Sleep, even when you're afraid of what the dreams might bring. Run, even when it feels like you can't run any more. And, always, remember, ...

The title of my blog is The way I see it.. and someone asked my why that is.. and it is because of this quote. "If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change." So I started this to get things off my chest and talk about things how I see it. So here it is.. my life. I realized lately that I have been a bit of a debbie downer.. Things in my life have reached a precipice and the decisions I make will impact my life down the road. All the people my age are either married, getting married, or dating. I am fine with being alone but sometimes it is hard. And I love that all these people are happy, but I kinda wish that I had it too.. And another big thing is continuing my education and finding a job. I am having to put off school so I can get a job to pay for school.. but most of the places are not hiring. So that is stressful.. But enough about that stuff.. the purpose of this post was to talk about something new that I am starting.. I am calling it the n...

I wish I had written down exactly what I was feeling when I was going through all the tests and xrays and my brace.. mostly what I remembered was feeling scared and ashamed that my body wasn't perfect.. and I just wanted to share what I remember about my experience. I was about 11 or 12 years old and i was in puberty and it was a very rough time for me, well for any girl at that time.. my body was changing I felt ugly and I was the oldest out of all my friends.. I already had glasses and braces.. so if you can imagine my self esteem was on the rocks. But I was at a routine checkup at my pediatrician and she noticed that my hips were uneven.. she said it probably wasn't anything but that she wanted us to go see a specialist. I remember my mom being freaked out and upset.. now for this whole process my parents did not have health insurance.. they paid for everything out of pocket.. and this stuff can get pretty expenshttp://www.blogger.com/ive. But we went and we met with the spe...